So, today is an interesting day for uninteresting reasons. I woke up this morning with tears in my eyes because of a dream I had about someone that died a few years ago. I have to admit that I was altogether uncomfortable with the idea that I found myself in an inconsolable state for some time. I quickly got out of bed and stepped into my shower, thinking that maybe I could wash the memory away. Instead, I sanitized myself and waited for my wife to finish washing up alongside me, with barely a word spoken between us. She always knows when I am not feeling quite myself, and stays close while keeping her distance from me, as she knows that I have a tendency to feel claustrophobic. After she got out of the shower, I opted to stay in a bit longer, still trying to forget, or at least put at ease what my mind refuses to let go of.
Now, I did not feel quite the way I would have liked to when I got out of a shower, so I decided I would do something that my wife uses to help herself when she feels a bout of sadness. I went down stairs sat down next to my wife and asked her if she was hungry. Of course she said yes, it was early in the morning and we had not eaten yet. So, I went to the kitchen and decided to put my mind to a task: making some oatmeal. Once our breakfast had been made and served, I decided to get close to my wife on the couch and smother myself in her presence. The idea of her with me always helps, I mean, if it helps her the woman of my dreams who also happens to deal with moderate to severe depression, well then, who am I to question it?
Shortly thereafter, I plugged in a movie that I haven’t seen in some time, and stayed close to my wife for as long as the movie would go and well into the credits. Eventually, she looked at me and told me that she was going to make us some spaghetti with meatless meat, vegetables, and garlic. I thought I would share my Sunday morning with you today because I have not been able to put actual words to how I woke up this morning. In fact, I like the idea of being able to say that although I did not wake up feeling the greatest I ever have, I am able to remember the good memories I have had with people from my past and enjoy my present appreciating everything others have to offer.
I sincerely hope you have a great rest of your day, and remember to reach out to those who love you and return the love when someone needs it.
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